Much as I doubt that anyone is still following this blog, I feel that it has become: a) a confessional for me, b) a record of living with MF, again, for me, and c) something that someone may stumble upon, perhaps long after I'm no longer here, while looking for information and resources for living with MF. To that latter point, I know I've searched for blogs, vlogs, and other peer resources that just don't seem to be there in any great number. The few that I have found just don't speak to me; they're perky, avoiding any meaningful exploration of the negative side of MF. But it's not the up side I need to explore, it's the dark side of it. That's where I need to commiserate, the territory that deals with the back and forth between wanting to live and wanting to give over to what seems to be the inevitable, the exhaustion of dealing with blood cancer over 14 or so years, of dealing with what I've come to think of as "the medical life". It...